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Over the course of the last 10 years my Christian life has been jam packed with activity, action, study, and reflection. I traveled in full time music ministry for 6 years. I spent 4 years studying heavily on many different topics, like cosmology, eschatology, theology, and science. And honestly, as a result… a lot has changed. I have changed. In many ways for the better. But, in other ways… maybe not. I couldn’t tell you.

All I know is that I will find out on that great day.

Recently however, I have felt a shift taking place. I have felt an urge come over me to slow my studies, to break away from the business of social media smart phones, and to simply live in the moment with God. To simply just breath it all in and exist.

It first came to me when considering the epic life of Moses. He did so much good for the kingdom of God leading the people to freedom, preforming signs and wonders, and being a leader. But, before that part of his life took place, he lived a different life. He spent 40 years in Midian as a meager shepherd. He had a regular job. He likely spent a lot of time in reflection rather than endless studies and worldly pursuit.

We read these events in Exodus 2 through 7.

This period of stillness struck me and has been with me for a while now. And as I step away from the hustle and bustle of smart phone addiction, the question comes to me “what to do with all of this extra free time”?

I could study more… and perhaps write a book on topics I am passionate about.

And while contemplating these things, a fellow believer unknowingly shares Ecclesiastes 12:12 with me.

The preacher sought to find out acceptable words: and that which was written was upright, even words of truth. The words of the wise are as goads, and as nails fastened by the masters of assemblies, which are given from one shepherd. And further, by these, my son, be admonished: of making many books there is no end; and much study is a weariness of the flesh. Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man. For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.Ecclesiastes 12:10-14

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It feels good to know what God wants from me right now. And it’s so simple. No major projects. No rush to action. No heavy theological externalization. Right now, God wants me to simply be still and know… know that He is God.

I don’t know what the future holds. And to be honest, I am at peace with that. I have spent the last 10 years pushing myself in different directions non-stop. It’s time to just simply be still and know. I would hope that my time spent in Midian won’t be nearly as long as was the time for Moses. But, I know this… God is bringing me to this place that I might take something from it into a future that He has in store for me.

Moses had to learn to lead sheep before he could learn to lead people.

God is planning to show me something big. I can feel it.

And I will sit in Midian for as long as it takes. All of the studying we do. All of the events, promotion, success we strive for… it’s all vanity. It’s so much more simple than that. Just fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.

 

Random Book Recommendation of the Day

Well, I haven’t had a lot going on lately on the creativity front other than a little recording here and there with the new vocalist (which has been a lot of fun). With that said, I have mostly been getting a lot of stuff done around the new house like most adults tend to do.

So… here is a random book recommendation since instead of something related to music.

The Vision: The Final Quest | Rick Joyner

 

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It’s pretty brutal from the start. The visual display of what the real world spiritual battle is like, in my opinion, is pretty spot on. I will say though, that I don’t agree with every single thing that is in this book. For example, the state of the dead toward the end of the book. You will also notice that at the end of this book it is an actual vision and not just a book of fiction despite being presented as a book of fiction. With that, you have to take this book with a grain of salt by realizing that you can’t just take it all in at face value.

Either way, I felt like it was a really entertaining read and some of the visuals in my opinion are pretty accurate when we consider what is likely going on in the spirit as we fight through this life as Christians.

It was an entertaining read, but I wouldn’t build any doctrine off of it obviously.

That’s right… it’s official. The vocalist that I put the ad out for has been found. And in a random and yet surprisingly unexpected way. But first, let’s hash out how things went for the ad. I got probably a dozen responses, at least three or four of which were the same day that the flyer got posted. Of the people that reached out, all but one really understood what I was looking for.

Most everyone either skipped over the fact that I was looking for a screamer, not a “singer”. Or, they were looking to start a band… which is not at all what my ad even hinted at.

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I met with the one vocalist that understood. He was a really amazing dude. And, he was a perfect fit. A solid Christian. A lover of hardcore and deathcore. And… a jam-up screamer. However, in the process of preparing some tracks to send to him, Russell came along from left field (no Ad required).

So, here is the short and skinny version of how I met Russell and how he turned out to be the too good to be true, perfect fit for my current project.

When my wife and I moved in to our new home, as per usual, at least a few different neighbors are typically kind enough to step out and introduce themselves. The neighbor directly across the street from me turned out to be a married couple close to our age. They just so happened to be Christian as well, and even do home group bible study at their place on the regular.

Way cool.

While talking with the new neighbor about what my wife and I do, the studio project came up. And he said he had just the person I needed to meet. Turns out my neighbor had just the person to set me up with on a blind “seeking screamer” first date.

So, not only am I making friends with the new neighbors… but now I’m already making friends with the neighbors friends. And to top that there is a common thread of Christ and music in the mix.

Talk about random.

Russell is a cool dude. I can’t wait to start tracking with him (note: the pixilated grainy photo is of Russell is from a video he sent me displaying some of his mids and lows).

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Yesterday I spent a few hours plastering the above flyer all over town. I hit a few of the Starbucks coffee shops, a few records stores, book stores, and of course… the local Guitar Center. Within the first five hours, even while I was still out posting them, I got a few hits. I’m hoping that this turns into something worthwhile.

If not, I have two options.

One, keep practicing vocals myself and come to the sad truth that my vocal tracks will just end up being very much below the bar of my hopes and expectations for the genre and the release of this new album I’ve been working on.

Or two, I can always just do another Kent Hovind style sermoncore release. To be honest, I am fine with this option, because at the end of the day, this option makes the project less about me and more about presenting the truth.

Regardless of which route transpires, I hope to find some likeminded people of faith to create music with out of this old school promotion attempt. I’ll be sure to post updates on what comes of it as things develop in the coming weeks.