Over the course of the last 10 years my Christian life has been jam packed with activity, action, study, and reflection. I traveled in full time music ministry for 6 years. I spent 4 years studying heavily on many different topics, like cosmology, eschatology, theology, and science. And honestly, as a result… a lot has changed. I have changed. In many ways for the better. But, in other ways… maybe not. I couldn’t tell you.
All I know is that I will find out on that great day.
Recently however, I have felt a shift taking place. I have felt an urge come over me to slow my studies, to break away from the business of social media smart phones, and to simply live in the moment with God. To simply just breath it all in and exist.
It first came to me when considering the epic life of Moses. He did so much good for the kingdom of God leading the people to freedom, preforming signs and wonders, and being a leader. But, before that part of his life took place, he lived a different life. He spent 40 years in Midian as a meager shepherd. He had a regular job. He likely spent a lot of time in reflection rather than endless studies and worldly pursuit.
We read these events in Exodus 2 through 7.
This period of stillness struck me and has been with me for a while now. And as I step away from the hustle and bustle of smart phone addiction, the question comes to me “what to do with all of this extra free time”?
I could study more… and perhaps write a book on topics I am passionate about.
And while contemplating these things, a fellow believer unknowingly shares Ecclesiastes 12:12 with me.
The preacher sought to find out acceptable words: and that which was written was upright, even words of truth. The words of the wise are as goads, and as nails fastened by the masters of assemblies, which are given from one shepherd. And further, by these, my son, be admonished: of making many books there is no end; and much study is a weariness of the flesh. Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man. For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil. – Ecclesiastes 12:10-14
It feels good to know what God wants from me right now. And it’s so simple. No major projects. No rush to action. No heavy theological externalization. Right now, God wants me to simply be still and know… know that He is God.
I don’t know what the future holds. And to be honest, I am at peace with that. I have spent the last 10 years pushing myself in different directions non-stop. It’s time to just simply be still and know. I would hope that my time spent in Midian won’t be nearly as long as was the time for Moses. But, I know this… God is bringing me to this place that I might take something from it into a future that He has in store for me.
Moses had to learn to lead sheep before he could learn to lead people.
God is planning to show me something big. I can feel it.
And I will sit in Midian for as long as it takes. All of the studying we do. All of the events, promotion, success we strive for… it’s all vanity. It’s so much more simple than that. Just fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.