Well, the time has come. And the release is here. The five song EP, Sooner or Later is now available on all platforms. With that said, here is the video for your listening pleasure. Below that you will find the lyrics. You can also download the entire EP for FREE on my Bancamp Page. When you go to download it, just put $0.00 as your purchase price. I hope you enjoy this release. I am really happy with it.

Song Lyrics

Asleep Among Wolves

Yeah, I realize I should pluck the plank from my eye. But, how can I when we’re all asleep on the inside not willing to admit that we’re all going to die comfortable in our sin making no real commitment? We should be ashamed. Professing faith in things we don’t even understand because we’ve been taught them by ravenous wolves. Ravenous wolves. Ravenous wolves. And then shall the Kingdom of Heaven be likened unto ten virgins. Though some were fools and some were wise the Bridegroom tarried. And the churches decided to close their eyes, neither warm nor cold. We’ll be spewed out of His mouth just like that parable foretold. The truth is that we’re all asleep on the inside not willing to admit that we’re all comfortable in our sin not wanting to make a commitment. I am tired of being asleep. The church needs to get back up on its feet. Wake up, wake up, wake up. Behold, the Bridegroom is coming. Yeah, I realize I should pluck the plank from my eye. But, how can I when we’re all asleep on the inside not willing to admit that we’re all going to die comfortable in our sin making no real commitment?

Keep Your Eyes Up

Oh, let us give thanks to the Lord unto the day of His return. In the clouds of glory He will descend. And His reward, it is with Him. It is with Him. Keep your eyes up. Oh God, prepare the way in me to have a clean heart that’s true and pure and righteous for You. Oh Lord, make me whole. Make me whole. I want to be with You. I want to see it through. Take me home. You’re my King, my God, my everything. You make my heart sing for joy in the name of the Lord. The Lamb that was slain from the foundation, so true. My heart skips a beat just knowing he wants me and you to be by His side for the rest of all time. Hallelujah. The Alpha and Omega. The Beginning and the End. The Ancient of Day and the Everlasting Almighty. The Creator of all things. The Banner and my Rock. The Shepard of my soul. And my Strong Tower. Oh, the Advocator of my soul. Faithful and True. The Chief Cornerstone. The Great High Priest. The King of kings. Our hope. Our joy. Our everything. Hallelujah. It’s not enough just to know I’m loved. He died for me and you. He had to see it through that we might escape it all. The Redeemer of my soul. Fear God. Keep His commands. For this is the whole of man. Hallelujah. Hallelujah.

Oh, the Aftermath

Oh, the aftermath of that sling as the stone struck the giant down on the ground. Sunken between the eyes like Balaam that couldn’t see what was coming after kicking the donkey because she stopped in the middle of the path. Oh, the aftermath. Open our eyes God.  If God spared not the angels that sinned, but cast them down to hell and delivered them. He spared not the old world by bringing in the flood. What are you going to say when it’s your turn to be judged? Many will say in that day, Lord, Lord. Have we not prophesied in Your name, casting out demons? Oh, how foolish could we be to think that in His name we are truly set free while on the inside we challenge like Goliath the day of that Great Battle who is the True and only Almighty? His flowing words come forth from that of a meager donkey the perverseness of our hearts and the nature of our being. As the unrighteousness removes us from the narrow path and into a self-control of denial, we’ve got to change. If God spared not the angels that sinned, but cast them down to hell and delivered them. He spared not the old world by bringing in the flood. What are you going to say when it’s your turn to be judged? Many will say in that day, Lord, Lord. Have we not prophesied in Your name, casting out demons?

Waiting

Oh, my God. Know this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers and mockers walking after their own lusts saying; where is the promise of His coming? For, since the fathers fell asleep all things continue as they were. From the beginning of all creation, willingly ignorant. Belligerent in fact. Ingrained in their minds that their ideas are the only ones worth buying. We’ve got to weigh the evidence first. And when He says he is coming again, there’s no reason that I should never believe Him. It’s not a matter of if, but when. You’ve got to realize there’s no disguising the truth. Oh my God, what have I done? I don’t know that I can wait much longer Lord. Bring me Home. But, if you want me to wait I will. Because, at the end of the day I would wait eternity. Let them mock and snicker if they want to. That just means they don’t want to be with you. It’s alright if I end up crucified. Every word they say, it just ends up fulfilling prophecy and pointing back to that great day when you died and your mother Mary she fell on her knees and she had to cry. And the vail was torn from top to bottom. And since that time we wait that great Day of the Lord. How long oh Lord until you avenge our blood?

The Perfection of Beauty

In my Father’s house are many mansions and I can’t wait to see them. If it were not so He would not have told you. Out of Zion, the perfection of beauty. God will shine forth like a precious stone of jasper clear as crystal. He will reign forever in the house of Jacob. His Kingdom will have no end. Even so Lord Jesus, come. And after these things I looked and beheld a great multitude which no one could number. All the nations, tribes, and peoples, and tongues standing before the throne. Before the Lamb, clothed in white righteousness with palm branches in their hands crying out with a loud voice saying; salvation belongs to our God and to the Lamb who sits on the throne. Through Jesus Christ, the only one who could redeem us all. What do you think about that? What do you think about that? Jesus Christ. Oh, my God. Come again. Even so Lord, come again. Lord, come. Lord, come. Even so Lord Jesus, come. We’re waiting on you Lord. We’re waiting on you Lord. Bring down Your Kingdom. Bring down Your Kingdom. Come Lord Jesus, come.

And no, I don’t mean stuck between a rock and a hard place… I mean torn. I am literally torn between two great loves. But, I am not really sure how to express myself. So, I guess I will do it here in blog form since, according to others, I am apparently somewhat decent at writing.

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As adults we have all come to the conclusion at some point or another most holidays are actually pagan in origin. Things like Christmas, Easter, and yes… Valentine’s Day are all in some way or another based on something other than what we as Americans celebrate it for. And, we tend to not really care. Let alone think twice of it. We just enjoy the day and move on with our lives.

Thing is, when we do a search on any given holiday we will find that it has countless things that are associated with it. Christmas is the winter solstice. And Easter, the spring equinox or the celebration of the goddess Ishtar. So on and so on it goes for every single holiday.

Valentine’s Day is no different obviously. There are all kinds of things tied to it.

Many consider Valentine’s Day to be Christian holiday. After all, it is named after a Christian “Catholic” saint. But when we consider the matter more closely, the pagan connections to the date appear much stronger than the Christian ones.

For example, Juno Fructifier… or Juno Februata, and the Feast of Lupercalia which came way before Catholics decided to commandeer the holiday. Every bit of it has to do with fertility. But, this blog post isn’t about all of the back story of the holiday with the intent of having an “I told you so” moment.

We are all already aware that these various holidays are steeped in something pagan somewhere down the line. The question that I am wrestling with is this; why can’t I just be like the countless other Christians that overlook this fact and just enjoy the holiday for what it is… just good old wholesome family time? I love my wife. I should just zip it and do like everyone else today.

Clearly, I’m just an over thinker.

Making decisions can be difficult

Go read 2 Kings 21 in total.

Basically, we have a new king getting set up named Manasseh. His father before him drove out all of the idols in the land. And here we see this new, young, king bringing them back. The people worshiped the host of heaven and served them. He even built altars in the house of the Lord.

There are countless stories besides this one in the Old Testament where idols are either erected or taken down. But, in this story the idols are in the house of the Lord specifically. Today, I have to ask… where is the house of the Lord? In the Old Testament the house of the Lord is where the law was kept. And we know that God will write His law on the hearts of His people. And in the New Testament we find that we, as people, are the temple. With that, we are the house of the Lord. Are there any idols in His house today?

The issue is that we allow ourselves to practice the little things and don’t consider them to be worship. For example, I can celebrate Valentine’s Day by expressing love, wearing an excessive amount of red, while following the traditions of the world by purchasing candy and flowers for a loved one. I can get offended when that special someone doesn’t reciprocate the same tradition based expression.

It may just be cards and sweet words expressed through following the traditions of the world. But, at what point are we in denial by refusing to admit that it can still be considered a form of worship while refusing to admit the roots of some of these traditions. The traditions themselves may have changed over time (cracking a whip while wearing a dead goat skin or blushing while we give each other followers). The latter of the two seems so harmless.

And yet, it is an act of the heart that is forcing itself to be affiliated with a particular festivity. I have a problem with that.

If I am the house of the Lord, what am I willing to allow into His house. The story for Manasseh in 2 Kings 21 didn’t end that well.

And when I see the bulk of North America rushing to the grocery store for flowers and a card to show their love on this special Holiday, I don’t see true love. I see the pagan past being tolerated by the masses because we’ve disguised it in innocence and an obligation to fit in with the traditions of our peers.

The pagan past is alive. And the idols have made their way into the groves of our daily lives. They are the same old pagans from Manasseh’s day. We’ve just dressed them up a little differently. And rather than putting them in a literal grove or a literal house, we are acting them out in the spirit and letting them take root in our being.

The word Holiday is a Catholic word meaning Holy Day. And the last time I checked there is only one day that God commands us to make sanctified and holy. And that day is the Sabbath… a day of remembrance.

I am torn between a rock and a hard place because I love both my God and my wife. In either case I’m going to be letting one of them down. So, regardless of what happens with regard to any “holiday“, I am destined to fail and fall short either way despite my love for them both.

And today, every year… the one I fail always ends up feeling like I don’t love her. It breaks my heart.

Well, just a little over a month and we have already returned… But why?

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Have you ever come to realize that something is true and then later try to ignore it, but you can’t because in the back of your mind the truth is still there smiling at you? For example, if your entire life you were being paid $10 an hour to do a $30 an hour job to one day realize that you were supposed to be getting paid that amount the entire time. You can move along, trying to ignore it, but you can’t. You’ll eventually find yourself in the office asking for a correction.

Our decision to return to the SDA church went something like that.

If you want to read the blog post that explains why we left at the end of December, you can click here to read it before moving on.

The short hand answer to our reason for leaving is the church’s inability to intellectually give a reason for their faith in the writings on Ellen G. White. After having read much of her work, one will be hard pressed to find a person within the church that can discuss her writings with you. Although I disagree with some of her commentary and find no reason “as of yet” to believe in her visions or prophecies, the Historicist view on eschatology is closest to the truth.

And when one actually does spend time reading through her writings it does bring some serious light into what the early reformers believed and taught regarding biblical prophecies, like Daniel and Revelation. With that, I think that her writings are in fact worth reading. And, I would recommend them to others while still disagreeing with some of her commentary.

One example of her commentary that changed my life would be her commentary on diet in the bible. Because of it, I am a vegan.

Although this church can’t reasonably give an answer for their faith in Ellen G. White when questions or criticism arise, that doesn’t make the truth of their eschatology any less true.

For example, the main reason why we weren’t able to stay away long, would be the church’s stance on the beast that comes up out of the earth found in the prophetic book of Revelation.

And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon. And he exerciseth all the power of the first beast before him, and causeth the earth and them which dwell therein to worship the first beast, whose deadly wound was healed. And he doeth great wonders, so that he maketh fire come down from heaven on the earth in the sight of men, And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by the means of those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live. – Revelation 13:11-14

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To the SDA church this beast is North America. This beast looks like a lamb, but speaks like a dragon. We look like a Christian nation, but we speak like the world. A large percentage of this nation, particularly the southern half, attend church. And yet, there is no change. No true repentance. This beast causes fire to come down out of heaven in the site of men.

Ellen G. White describes this fire as the charismatic movement in great detail.

Don’t get me wrong. I have friends that are part of this movement, and I find them to be very sincere in their faith (including the pastor of the church we just left when returning to the SDA church). But, when we examine this movement as a hole we will find that there is something amiss. When we stepped away from the SDA church in December we began to attend one of these churches. Of course they disagreed with our eschatological views on things like the state of the dead, eternal hell, and the rapture. But, that was to be expected.

However, every week was the same. I found myself watching people get “filled” one day out of the week with no real internal change taking place. Have you ever heard the phrase “on fire for Christ”?

The charismatic movement is raining down this false fire. People are getting filled, being passionate for Christ one day out of the week with no real fruit to show for it.

Christ said that we will know them by their fruit. When I go to these churches I don’t see repentance. I see people chasing emotion while maintaining their interest in the worldly things around them. At what point did the church decide that fruit meant church growth, church attendance, the number of people baptized every quarter, and the number of ministries being run under one roof, etc.?

The fruits of the spirit are love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. The fruits that we are led to look for in a church are works based (church growth) when in reality, they are character based. And that isn’t something I see in America anymore.

The modern protestant movement has replaced the fruits while becoming complacent in its sin. And the main fruit that the charismatic movement lacks from my perspective is self-control. Some of them become so passionate during worship in church that they literally lose control and when it’s done, they go right back into the world unchanged.

I realize that I should pluck the plank from my own eye before pointing at the sins of others. And with that, I am a nobody. And I have no true answers. This post is just me hashing out my thoughts while sharing them with others. Who am I to have any answers or an opinion for that matter? I would refer you to 2 Corinthians 12:11 for that one.

While attending this charismatic church, the lobby was a time where I was eager to hear peoples stories of conversion and faith. But all I heard were stories about recent movies, current video games, and the latest tech gadgets while offering to go get drinks later. Church has become a social club. Not a place of spiritual growth.

The thing that made me have to get up and leave was when the pastor stated, and I quote: “two of the things that Jesus said to the rich young ruler were not true”. The pastor may have meant something else, but that isn’t what was said.

So, what is the strange fire?

It’s an appearance of godliness but the lack thereof.

Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.2 Timothy 3:5 

The truth is, we are all asleep. When the ten virgins of Mathew 25 heard the loud cry “All” of them woke up. This means that at that last call, all of the churches were asleep. I think that we are in that time. We are all asleep. And the SDA church is no different. They are asleep too, not practicing much of what they preach… just like the rest of the christian world.

Although this may be so, it doesn’t change the fact that their view on eschatology, theology, and doctrine are closest to the truth with or without Ellen G. White.

You can’t compromise the truth just because the church is asleep.

We had to return. The only other option is strange fire. The path that leads to destruction is broad. And sadly, most of the modern protestant world is on that path. We have lost what it means to have true repentance. And besides, who needs repentance  these days anyway when the beast that looks like a lamb but speaks like a dragon can offer you the easy way out; grace without works.

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Over the course of the last 10 years my Christian life has been jam packed with activity, action, study, and reflection. I traveled in full time music ministry for 6 years. I spent 4 years studying heavily on many different topics, like cosmology, eschatology, theology, and science. And honestly, as a result… a lot has changed. I have changed. In many ways for the better. But, in other ways… maybe not. I couldn’t tell you.

All I know is that I will find out on that great day.

Recently however, I have felt a shift taking place. I have felt an urge come over me to slow my studies, to break away from the business of social media smart phones, and to simply live in the moment with God. To simply just breath it all in and exist.

It first came to me when considering the epic life of Moses. He did so much good for the kingdom of God leading the people to freedom, preforming signs and wonders, and being a leader. But, before that part of his life took place, he lived a different life. He spent 40 years in Midian as a meager shepherd. He had a regular job. He likely spent a lot of time in reflection rather than endless studies and worldly pursuit.

We read these events in Exodus 2 through 7.

This period of stillness struck me and has been with me for a while now. And as I step away from the hustle and bustle of smart phone addiction, the question comes to me “what to do with all of this extra free time”?

I could study more… and perhaps write a book on topics I am passionate about.

And while contemplating these things, a fellow believer unknowingly shares Ecclesiastes 12:12 with me.

The preacher sought to find out acceptable words: and that which was written was upright, even words of truth. The words of the wise are as goads, and as nails fastened by the masters of assemblies, which are given from one shepherd. And further, by these, my son, be admonished: of making many books there is no end; and much study is a weariness of the flesh. Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man. For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.Ecclesiastes 12:10-14

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It feels good to know what God wants from me right now. And it’s so simple. No major projects. No rush to action. No heavy theological externalization. Right now, God wants me to simply be still and know… know that He is God.

I don’t know what the future holds. And to be honest, I am at peace with that. I have spent the last 10 years pushing myself in different directions non-stop. It’s time to just simply be still and know. I would hope that my time spent in Midian won’t be nearly as long as was the time for Moses. But, I know this… God is bringing me to this place that I might take something from it into a future that He has in store for me.

Moses had to learn to lead sheep before he could learn to lead people.

God is planning to show me something big. I can feel it.

And I will sit in Midian for as long as it takes. All of the studying we do. All of the events, promotion, success we strive for… it’s all vanity. It’s so much more simple than that. Just fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.

 

This post is a condensed explanation as to why I have decided to step out of the SDA church after less than two years of involvement in the historicist movement.

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First off, I am still a historicist Christian. No question. No hesitation. Including all that comes with it.

But… there comes a point when you have to follow Christ, even if it means walking away for your church. After less than two years as a historicist Christian (the only church near us that agrees with this eschatology being the SDA church), it was time to step away from the Seventh Day Adventists.

And here’s why.

This particular church in the historicist camp comes with a prophet. And truthfully, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. So, as I embarked on the quest of getting to know this church and this prophet I read countless books from Ellen G. White. Many of them I highly recommend. Her work definitely presents the reader with a true desire for repentance by challenging the reader to be more confrontational about their own personal daily sin.

But, the more I read, the more questions I had for the church. There were quite a few views that she held that I disagreed with (24 elders, Genesis 6, 144,000, sinless worlds… just to name a few). Views that the church itself still holds. And so, I did what any logical person would do.

I went to the church.

I’ve sat down at coffee shops with pastors of the denomination to confront some of the more controversial topics. I’ve sat in offices with deacons asking questions about church practices that don’t line up with the church’s own teachings. I’ve talked with members that were third and fourth generation members on similar topics as well.

And yet, I got the exact same answer from every member, pastors, deacons and longstanding attendees alike.

I don’t know. I haven’t read it. Let me see if I can find someone that knows.

The straw that broke the camel’s back for my decision to leave was a petty one in all honesty and had nothing to do with the aforementioned issues. We were participating in a children’s club for my son. This club held biweekly activities with occasional larger activates on a regional scale. The club meetings were canceled more often than they were held, and at the last minute. We had a regional meet up happening. And the day before we were supposed to leave for the trip I reached out asking for a few details. The reply was that it had been canceled, but they forgot to tell me. Go figure.

I’d had enough.

I can get past the lack of organization with the kid’s club. After all, it’s run by parents and things happen. I realize that this club was and is doing the best they can with the time and resources that it has. I do not fault them for my decision to leave. But, it did mount an emotional strain on top of the already mounting angst that existed.

The club was excusable.

But, in regard to faith, I had to take a stance. Peter explains it best when he said; “But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear”.

I even had one member tell me they refuse to talk about such things when I asked them the simple question, “What do you think about Ellen G. White’s un-fallen worlds“.

I am at a point in my life where I am done playing church. I want answers. And in just two short years it became very apparent to me that none of the people I have met in the SDA community have an established reason for their faith. Not the pastors, not the deacons, nor the members.

This experience wasn’t just secluded to merely one body either, just to clarify.

I believe the historicist view. I think many, but not all, of Ellen G. White’s writings are worth reading.And I would recommend them to others. But, with reading comes questions. Questions you would hope the church can answer.

They couldn’t.